Saturday, December 10, 2005
My future has always been uncertain and I never complained about it and deal with it as it unwraps. But unfortunately, the person I’m concerned about, seems to think that I have a secure future and I don’t worry about anything and am enjoying my life while he is busy trying to un-sort his life even after two decades of hard work. I know the person is working real hard, but it wouldn’t hurt if he managed to understand that all I’ have been wanting was a smile on his face. I sincerely hope to drag his attention to the other folks that need his attention just as much as his work and his wife.
I resort to writing, diary & blog, to get rid of those hard feeling and once I take off that load, I can smile and make others smile.
It is again one of those sad posts today, that I promised I wouldn’t post on this blog ever again. But I am just losing control and am waiting for a new beginning. Just as season does not stay forever, I am certain things shall change for the better with the coming new year. I’m eagerly waiting for this New Year, new sunrise and a new day that will brighten up his life and my life.
Just yesterday night as I walked along the sidewalk, under the moon lit sky, inhaling the holiday spirit that was floating around in the air - the air filled with "merry christmas" and "happy holidays" - and almost forgot about the little troubles I have and enjoyed the smiles and friendliness from total strangers. As I was mesmerized and walking back home, a golden leaf fluttered past. I caught it and twirled it by the stem. The foliage felt like a sign that life is too short to worry - enjoy it while it lasts.
But I guess life is indeed full of uncertainty!
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